tlj

So don’t cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
Don’t lie to me,
Just get your things.
I’ve made up your mind.
I just wanted to share some stuff…

I have a great job. I love it. I have a great family, I love them. I had a great life, I miss it. I have a better life, I’m glad I made the change. I feel like maybe I strayed from certain convictions in the last few months… I’m eager to get back on track… Finacially i’m pulling through finally, first time in years i’ve made enough to live, and make purchases I want, not just need. (although recently they are needed things, but things maybe before I would have just suffered without, like… a coat). I’m going to be moving to a new apartment in a few months and am looking for a roomate, but since no one who reads this lives anywhere near me… I guess asking here is pointless. I spent my Thanksgiving with some friends, we went to see a movie and dinner. I am looking forward to having a home again, and not some room i’m renting out from a guy I don’t really know or converse with much.

I really am not going to let myself be pressured into choices any more. There is no point. I should never again let anyone unilaterally make choices that affect my life. EVER.

On a side note there might be a change on here soon with my site. You’ll notice it will be moved to www.tlj.zephyrconcepts.com to make way for the new Zephyr Concepts homepage, you can still get to this site via the small Purple P Triangle in the upper left corner, (you will need to log in to be anywhere on the site at that point). I’m going to be reopening my company I think, if for no other reason then to get some good solid stats on the site through google.

I’m really uninterested in talking lately if you hadn’t noticed, a lot is going on in my head and I’m sorry if i seem distant to anyone, its really nothing personal.

Happy Thanksgiving

-Trevor

In due time.
we’ll finally see
there’s barely time
for us to breathe.

It never stops amazing me how incredibly simple the lyrics on the Postal Service CD can be, but still hold an important observation. Things have been really busy lately for me. The HRC had its national dinner on the 7th. So I had to do a lot of volunteer work that week. The dinner was very cool, but when the normal ticket price is nearly $250, I guess you should expect it to be nice. I invited Tyson to go with me, whom you may or may not know about. Well… yea I guess I should talk about him. We had been hanging out for about a month prior, and I asked him to go after I had known him for like 3 days. By the time the dinner came around things were pretty much over. I have to admit I didn’t want him to go at that point, but I had already wasted a lot of money on that ticket. In any case, the next night we got into one of those conversations, which seemed to only cement the ‘lets be friends’ thing… when *wham* right out of nowhere… I’ve got myself a boyfriend. I don’t like talking about people in specifics, so all I will say is he’s a sweetheart and I couldn’t be happier with him.

Okay so after the dinner… well… mainly I’ve been working, and trying to situate my finances, which are slightly askew. (ok a huge pile o crap-mess). There’s a lot going on right now and I don’t really feel like sharing every little thought in my head, I’m kind of all over the place lately. I had less on my mind when I did nothing but sit and dwell all day… how does that work out??? I thought having a job would alleviate the random side thoughts of the past. WRONG.

I’m going to Philadelphia on the third of November. I volunteered to help in the state legislature elections. HRC is sending out assistance to races with very narrow margins, hoping to sway the vote and get more fair-minded people into various offices. I have not really decided if I think this is a great idea or not, but I think the experience will be well worth the questionable nature of outsiders interfering in internal issues which have no relation to myself. That and it’s a free trip hehe.

I’m not sure if I’m going back to California for Christmas or not… I want to but at the same time I don’t know if I want to bother with all the hassle that is flying during the holidays. I want to go back but at the same time I don’t. It’s easier to be far away, you don’t think about everything else that you’ve left out of your life.

I’m going to keep this one short for now… maybe if I have some magical insight later today I’ll write about it.

-Bye