Yes, I deleted the last entry. Mainly because nothing I had written was very accurate. I wrote it while I was depressed one night and decided later that nothing there was actually correct. When I get upset or scared, my inclination is to run back home. I am sure most people can understand that mentality.
I recently realized that I have not been truly happy for a long time now. I really tried to think back, and discovered that pretty much since I Interviewed for the new job I have been unhappy. I think I got caught up and relinquished a lot of control. I am going to correct an earlier statement about the new Job, I do like the new company. I just that compared to how things were with HRC, I am not as crucial here. I like feeling as if I am needed and appreciated. I have not found that place here at Segue yet, but I am working on it.
Check list-o-happiness:
- Living arrangements – For this I moved out of Springfield, back inside the beltway. I think the new location will be closer to my friends, and to the city. This should cascade down to the other areas I need to address. The new apartment is in Arlington, with my friend Ryan. It’s a nice, modern, clean apartment, and we got a great deal on it as well. (2 months free rent).
- Intra-personal – I’d like to see my friends more consistently. As it is, I see some once a week, others once a month, some almost never… I need to spend less time at home and enjoy their company.
- Family – Dog actually, I’d like my dog back. I miss him and I enjoy the responsibility I’m forced to take when he’s with me. (I have to get up at this time, I have to come home at this time, etc.)
- Worklife – I’d like to get a Masters degree in something work related, As well as to find something at work that needs to be done, and to take the initiative and do it. At HRC I had no problems with this, I rebuilt several sites just to make them a little bit better. I’m trying to locate and equivalent here with Segue.
- Physical wellbeing – I’d like to adopt a more stable diet, and to begin to work out. Both the new office and apartment feature Gyms, so now I have no reason to avoid them other then my own laziness.
My life was adrift a few years ago, the time between DC and college. I had everything on track for about a year, but then things slipped and I am not exactly sure why and how, but I am very eager to fix the problem and get things rolling once again.
